My Little Nappeunni

My little Nappeunni passed away this past Saturday 😭 He couldn’t move his legs on Friday, and when I took him to the vet on Saturday, we were immediately referred to Neuro at a local animal hospital.

Unfortunately, X-rays showed a lesion in his neck caused by an aggressive bone cancer. At the end of 2024, he wasn’t feeling well, and another vet had diagnosed him with a UTI. With pain medication and antibiotics, he seemed to be doing better, but then began to show signs of not feeling well after a couple weeks post-regimen. I took him into another vet for a second opinion, and they saw that it seemed his kidney was a little enlarged, but since his bloodwork didn’t show anything bad, we got him on urinary health food. Nothing much changed for a couple of weeks, but since he has always been an anxious cat, we figured it could also be attributed to him not adjusting well with the new food, and that he was bothered by that. We started him on Prozac to hopefully help with that.

It turns out that the bone cancer had been effecting his urinary abilities - and this past Friday, it finally ate away enough at his neck for it to make an impact on his ability to even move 😭 he was in pain and the hospital said there was no further treatment and we had to let him go.

My sweet, sweet little Nappeunni got cuddles and treats before we sent him off to be with Daddy Cheung and Jesus. I miss him so much - his cute presence, his beautiful eyes, his playful spirit, and just the way he was a little brother in every sense of the word. Hakzai took care of him, and he would come to me for belly rubs after nightmares. He was always jealous whenever Hakzai played with a toy, or if I was on the phone with someone. He sometimes had a sassy anti-touch attitude, but other times, he would nuzzle in and crave his cuddles. He had such a cute way of needing to be burritoed whenever he met strangers, and I can’t even comprehend how such a young soul can be put through such pain 😭

It has honestly been a little traumatizing - when Daddy Cheung was at the end of his journey, his colon cancer had metastasized, and the cancer cells also ate away at his neck. He was able to get it repaired through surgery, but he wasn’t able to survive through insurance-mandated transfer to a less-expensive hospital 😭 I held his hand as he left us, and I also cradled Nappeunni in my arms as he was sent to Heaven.

My heart aches - I have been crying on and off the last couple of days. I can’t sleep without being reminded of his cuddly self, curling up behind the crook of my knee for safety, or coming up to me and requesting a belly rub 😭 I know he is feeling better now, in Heaven farting on Jesus’ leg and playing with my dad, but I miss him so, so much. He was always there with me while I was sick back in 2020, and I can tell Hakzai is a little confused by his absence as well. How do you explain to a cat that his brother won’t be coming home from the vet? How do you explain to a cat that you need to hug him while crying to pretend he’s your other cat, but not to worry, because you still love him? I’m haunted by his beautiful teal eyes closing and going glassy, and I wish I could just curl up and cuddle him more, kiss him more, bother him more, give him more belly rubs, take more pictures of his wild sleeping poses, and more 😭 he was my little baby, my angel who chose to be with me, despite having the choice of more seasoned cat owners. I didn’t deserve such a wonderful, cute, sassy cat like him, but he loved me so much 😭 he loved us so much.

Rest in peace, my beloved Nappeunni 😭 I love you so much, and I look forward to cuddling you and giving you belly rubs and playing with you in Heaven ❤️ have fun with my Daddy in the meantime, and try not to fart too much on Jesus 🥹